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I was on a friend’s site, Christ Follower – Alan McDurmon, and he had a good blog on accountability.  Check it out by clicking on accountability.

Anyway this blog forced me to open up a little sharing more of me.  So I thought I would share.

I find that in my own walk, when I was younger in my walk.  I looked at accountability as one judging. Judging is a sin.  WELL that was an excuse to point the finger at someone else rather then accepting my faults.  As I grew up in my Christian faith, grew closer to God in having a more intimate relationship with him through Jesus Christ.  I realize accountability is a way of helping eachother grow in love for one another.  If one is pointing out our faults simply for putting us down, then yes that is judgement, but if in love to help us become better and not stray away, then that is guidance or accountability.  I am thankful to have the mentors, friends I have who hold me accountable.

Why I care about what people think:  One being a female, not sure if that has anything to do with it.  Two His word says to live our life as Christ would live.  Now I realize I will fail making mistakes and at times hinder His light from shining through my life.  But I care about what God thinks of me and what He sees in me. I want His light to shine through.  Less of me and more of Him.  But I am human, I care whether my friends think I am a good friend or a bad friend.  Why, because if they think I am bad, then there is an area in my life where I am hindering HIS light.  I care if the one I fall in love with, likes my appearance, my behavior, my way of thinking, etc.  Why, because I value what he has to say and to please him second.  I say second because God is who I want to please first and foremost.  That is why the person whom I fall in love with must be saved and must be serving him already on his own.  I care about the opinion of my children to appoint.  Meaning, I want them to feel loved and happy and proud to have me as a parent, yet at the same point I am willing to put away popularity with them to ensure they have the foundation needed.  In a divorce situation, this is hard, but that is another story for another day.  I care what my Pastor thinks of me.  Why, because if he who GOD has entrusted over a flock of his sheep (HIS children who attend that church) does not see Him in my life, then I am blinded and need to see.  My Pastor, whom I have grown to value his opinion, will not hesitate to set me straight.  I consider him more then a mentor, also one to hold me accountable.

Following the crowd: NO, I did not follow the crowd, in my youthful years, yet I would set the trend in some cases.  Even today I do not follow the crowd, but as I have grown closer to the Lord, I have found myself to feel alienated and alone.  BUT there is a scripture in the Holy Bible that states we are not of this world and brings me comfort.  SO I do my best to keep the enemy’s lies away about why I am alone, keeping oppression at a distance.  Once was afraid to take a stand, not so much anymore.  I realize that when God wants us to do something.  If we lean on Him, He provides the strength and courage to succeed.  We we refuse to listen or take the road of rebellion, then heart aches tends to follow for a season.  God is good at giving us a second chance or even a 100th chance.  He never gives up on us.

Rebuke someone who talks one way and walks another:  How about allowing God to love them through you?  Gently helping them to see the error of their ways.  Isn’t that accountability?  NOW, if you are thinking of a person who has harden their heart to the possibility of him being real, then that is different.  There are people who are anti-Christ, and personally I think it will take an act of God to reach them.  He tells us not to defile ourselves by associated with sin.  I would not associate with anyone who refuses to accept Jesus.  It would eventually spoil me…like a rotten apple in a basket spoiling the entire batch unless removed.  That is a form of rebuke I would take.  But God will send some to try an reach these people, those He has prepared to witness to those types.  But to witness does not mean hanging out with them on a regular basis.  To hang out for a period of time to share or witness, but not to hang out to do as they do.  We are called to stand out, not to be conformed to the ways of the world.


I have been thinking about my life and the story described in my last blog.  I can not say I have ever experienced that type of situation.  I have been in the position where God has placed a person with no connection to me or situation having nothing to do with me on my mind and all I could do is kneel and pray.

To step out side the box and look at one’s life and judge yourself takes courage and strength to admit your own weakness and faults.   Finding a mentor is good.  That person or a group of people can help you do this.  Being able to tell whether or not you are in the right place is hard to determine unless we truthfully take a look at our own life and our own behavior.  It is painful.  The right place deals with asking yourself, "Am I where I am meant to be?  Am I in the right type of work? Am I in the right job at the right company?  Am I living in the right house, the right town?  I am I with the right person whether it is your spouse or companion?"  To be honest, if you are questioning whether or not it is your spouse, please seek Christian counseling before deciding to divorce.  God does not like divorce and that was not initially his intent for the union He created, but does make provision for divorce by accepting Moses’s decree for divorce which is listed in Matthew.  Anyway to continue with the questions, "Am I hanging out at the right places? Lastly, am I attending fellowship (church) where HE wants me to?"

So I began to analysis my life.  My job.  For once in a long time, I feel as if I am where I am meant to be.  My boss makes me feel intelligent, useful, appreciated, and most of all he is usually, 90% of the time, in a cheerful mood.  I am not really sure if the board members like me, but I technically work for my boss, he is the barrier between them and I.  The book explains that if we are miserable at work, find ourselves griping, being angry all the time, and things are not progressing basically anything hindering HIS light from shinning then perhaps were’ re in the wrong place.  In my life, there are moments where I may react in a humanistic way hindering HIS light and quickly must find a place to repent.  Mostly I try to walk in the His spirit, but I am human and I am NOT perfect. I say this because even at work, I allow HIS Light to shine.  I will share his word, music with his word or praise.  I simply just talk about HIM, about Jesus, about how HE has worked in my life, the life of my friends, others I am aware of.  I simple share HIM.  I must say this is the First job I have ever had where I can do this.

My home, the place I live.  It was a miracle how we were able to come to live in this home.  He literarily moved us, my family, out of a shack.  Another story for a another day.  I have old pictures of this place, but memories I do not want to stir up.  I recently drove out there to show a friend of mine from church.  The grass of course has grown and a few trees have died and fallen, and some sheds fallen, but the house surprisingly was still there as it was, the same as when we left.  I will go take new pictures this weekend just for keep sake with out the old memories of a few people that …well anyway.  I can’t believe that old house is still so strong.  🙂  I am blessed.  God is so terrific.

My hang out place, hmm, I don’t think I have this. Other than my church and my Christian family.  I don’t have any non-Christian hang outs anymore.  I didn’t realize this until the last few days.  Now I do have non-Christian friends, and some are wonderful people to know.  I try to stay in touch.  When they ask me how I am doing.  Without realizing it or intentionally planning it, I tend to share the blessings God has given me since I last spoke to them, witnessing to them.  Not preaching, but sharing.

My spouse.  I have no spouse.  Now I have had a similar visions, dreams about a total stranger, then when I met him first is was an odd way to meet.  The Lord has a strange way of doing things sometimes.  Anyway after a very long period of time, this person and I met face to face.  I could feel the connection just being within his presence.  Although I must say, I felt a connection with this person before meeting him, in person that feeling was so strong.  I am sad to say the feeling does not seem to be mutual.  I have fought the possibility of not receiving discernment very clear in this matter.  I still can’t explain how I knew of him before being introduced, but anyway.  This person is either in rebellion and dealing with issues of his own, or I am blinded.  So being in the right place is hard to determine.  Being with the right people even harder.  I can not read minds.  Unless a person is willing to risk pain and hurt to open up and share their life, that initial connection or feeling can not grow.  The seed can not become a beautiful flower or a strong tall beautiful tree.   A seed takes watering, fertilizing, feeding, and nurturing.  As any relationship whether it is merely friendship or romance even marriage.  I realize that this person the Lord revealed may not recognize the same thing I do either because women tend to be more touchy feelly then men.  Plus we tend to make more of something sometimes then men.  We have been pin pals and great friends since early July 2006.  After meeting 2.5 months ago and undue pain and hurt perhaps caused more by myself due to my fretting and his unwillingness to let go of his emotion and his unwillingness to make time for me, tonight I have come to realize he may not be ready, may not be for me.  Perhaps I made the mistake in discerning why this person crossed my path as Pastor Franklin has stated, it takes practice in discerning things correctly and while we learn we will incorrectly discern things. 

I know things happen for a reason for a purpose especially if one is doing his or her best to walk in the Spirit.  Mistakes happen.  Rejection is present. Perhaps in this situation, God brought him into my life for another purpose.  This person has held my hand ‘so to speak’ many nights, specially when I had a hard time letting go of my ex.  His ministry that he provides to the youth in being obedient to the Lord in serving Him, is a great way for Chris, my son, to find a good activity one where his relationship with the Lord can grow.  It is an activity in the city where my son lives.  If it is God’s will, Chris will find a way to attend on his own.  This person is a great person.  A good person.  Just not for me I guess.  Wow, I can’t believe I just typed that.  Anyway, this person has not stated his feelings.  I am left to assume he is not interested.

This books lists some results of the affects when being in the right place.

1. It releases supernatural provision in your life.

2. It provides protection.

3. It demands the death of pride.

4. It is often preceded by a season of discomfort.

5. It releases the glory of God on your life.

6. It prevents exposure to sinful situations and temptations you would encounter if improperly placed.

7. It can help you to avoid future problems.

I like how Pastor Franklin states, "We are to seek God’s face, not His hand, We want a handout but God wants a face-off."  Release the Supernatural Provision for your life.  I intend to.  1 Kings 17:3-4 "Get away from here and turn eastward, and hide by the Brook Cherith, which flows into the Jordan.  And it will be that you shall drink from the brook, and I have commanded the ravens to feed you there."  This is mentioning how God tells or instructs Elijah to do something and during the time of famine, God provided provision in water and food.  Stated in the book, "Divine supply follows divine placement.  If Elijah had been any other place but the right place, the ravens would not have fed him."  WOW!!!!

I guess I am in the right place.  Some how my needs are being met.  I do not have a lot of money.  My pay is not enough to cover expenses sometimes, but some how miraculously my needs are met.  NO, I do not receive handouts and there is no one giving me money.  It is hard to explain.  God has a way, HIS way of doing things.  I simply put my life in HIS hands and trust him.  Yes, there are moments when I try to control things or make things happens, falling on my face.  There are those times I loose control and see no hope, God is there to comfort and smooth things out. 

Remember we are all humans and although we Christians have been reborn, we are still capable of sinning and failing.  Do not fight the urge to kneel and repent or not kneel but to repent.  Be ready for HIS return. 🙂  Well good night all.  God bless.

{July 12, 2008}   Chapter 5: Right Place

Are you in the right place?  What is the right place? 🙂

Did you know that God has already ordained the place you should be?

Acts 17:26 "And He has made from one blood every nation of men to dwell on all the face of the earth, and has determined their pre-appointed times and the boundaries of their dwellings."

‘Pre-appointed times and the boundaries of their dwellings.’  Pre-appointed- to appoint ahead of time. Appoint- to name or assign, to determine by authority, or to designate.  Remember the scripture about how he created you in your mother’s womb.  He knew when you would be formed and by whom since long before your parents knew. 🙂  Weird huh, but comforting.  He set the boundaries of where we will live (dwell) before we entered this world.

This chapter begins with a story about how Pastor Franklin had a vision through a dream.  At first he did not understand the dream.  The dream brought, not fear, but concern for his youngest child.  He woke his wife and they both began to pray for their family concentrating on the youngest that night.  He had gone on to say how he even prepared a sermon for the following Sunday.  This dream showed the death of a young child, they at first took it as a warning that Satan had targeted their children.  He knew through the blood of Jesus Christ, they could cancel the enemy’s intent.  The congregation of course was touched by the message he delivered.  After this service they were leaving to go on a family vacation.  For some reason, his wife suggested to leave a day earlier then planned.  He made it seem as if that was unusual for them to change plans at last minute.  He did come into agreement with her and they left a early.  When they arrived they had gone to SeaWorld, another unplanned item on their agenda, they had only planned on Disney World.  By leaving a day early they had the time to go to SeaWorld in addition to Disney World.  They went and while there ran into bad weather.  He describes the scene to full detail and how the storm was unusual and was life threatening.  Their youngest had at this point never gone to strangers and always clinched on to her mother.  There was another lady present whom their youngest had jumped into the arms of, the arms of a total stranger.  A young lady, 26 years old, held their youngest through out the storm.  Even when Pastor Franklin’s wife had reached for her, she would not come.  This lady was with her parents.  As the storm died down.  This lady was still crying.  You see Pastor Franklin thought she was crying due to the storm. Nope.  She was still crying and her parents began to cry.  Turns out this lady had lost her daughter about the same age of this little girl.  This lady had been shut up in her room, not wanting to live and was angry with God.  That day was the first day this lady had left her room. 

To quote Pastor Franklin book page 63, "Two months ago, my daughter’s three-year-old child died of congestive heart failure in the middle of the night.  This is the first time we have been able to get our daughter out of her bedroom because she has been so devastated with grief.  She’s been blaming God for taking her little girl." 

Pastor Franklin began to speak of how God had provided discernment via a dream.  He began to minister to her.  Explained how God allowed him to feel her grief.  He explained how he had even gone to church to speak about the dream, the child he saw in a coffin.  He also informed her that if she did not believe him, there was a recording of the sermon on video she could watch.  She listen as he explained how God loved her and expressed it through their youngest.  Who until this moment had never gone into the arms of a stranger.  He spoke about King David losing a son and what King David said, "Can I bring him back again? I shall go to him, but he shall not return to me." 2 Samuel 12:23   Pastor Franklin told her that even though she could not bring back her child, nor could he that someday she will go to the place where her daughter was, of course if she was willing to let go of the pain leaving her daughter in God’s loving hands.  To forgive, to love, to seek HIM.   The lady and all of them prayed.  Her faith was restored.

Remember, God knows our pain, our sufferings, the trials we face here on earth.  Remember Jesus did walk the earth before rising to the heavens to be with the Father at his right hand.  As many have said, "Suffering never leaves you where it finds you; you either become bitter or better."  It either turns you into a bitter, miserable complainer. (or) It conforms, transforms you into the image of Jesus Christ.

God loved that lady so much that He gave Pastor Franklin a dream that rearranged their life, their schedule.  And the Pastor Franklin’s 3 year old daughter the insight and trust and faith to go into the arms of this broken, hurting lady during a terrible life threatening storm, the arms of a stranger, but NOT a stranger to God.  A storm that had the entire stadium of viewers at SeaWorld concerned for shelter and their lives.

Proper Placement

Being in the right place at the right time.  Have you ever wonder if you were where you should be?  Makes you think huh?

I will talk about this next…Chapter 5 I will break up due to time.  I must leave for now.  I leave you with these questions to ponder. 😀

First my apology.  I was reading in Chapter 5 today and as I was about to end my study time with notes.  For some reason I flipped backwards in the book.  A section stuck out. A section I read, but must have overlooked.  It cut through my heart today.  Anyway, tonight as I was jumping online to blog off my notes on Chapter 5, I could see I did not blog on Chapter 4.  HMMMM.  Amazing how we avoid something without realizing it.  Chapter 4 really hit home.  I will share a little as I journal my thoughts on this chapter.  As usual, I pray and ask God’s for His guidance over what I type.  I pray that if you are reading this book with me,  you will feel comfortable to leave a comment about your thoughts on this chapter, below each blog you will find a comment link. 🙂

There is a friend who sticks closer then a brother. Proverbs 18:24

This chapter begins with a question that cut my heart like a knife. "Have you ever given your best in a relationship, and gotten the worst in return?"  I bet you have.  We all have at some point in our life.  Whether in a friendship, a love relationship (marriage or dating), or even relationship via different organizations (work, volunteer groups, etc).  Life is not easy.  For a Christian, life can be more difficult.  Why, you ask?  The enemy is constantly attacking.  He will attempt to break you, to cause you to stray, to fall away from God. 

This section goes on to say, "Lookin’ for love in all the wrong places, Lookin’ for love in too many faces."  I thought about this long and hard.  I have not looked in too many places, but perhaps I have looked in the wrong places.  Then there is ‘Too many faces’, I can not say I have done this either.  I do realize the one face I knew for 15 years is now the wrong face.  Some would say this is my problem, and I need to go out and meet many faces to find the right face, but I disagree.  I feel that God will lead me to the one he has for me.  This chapter goes to prove my point.

This chapter speaks about finding the right relationship that is healthy, balanced that everyone wants and needs.  Needs…..hmmmm.  Do we really need a relationship?  I thought, "no I do not need a man, I have God."  Then later God shows me that He did not intend for me to be alone.  Being alone and being content filled with peace is great, but God created me and knows my needs as a person as he does each of us.  He even said man should not be alone.  Genesis 2:18 "…’It is not good for the man to be alone; I will make him a helper suitable for him.’"  I like how man was created from dust and God breathing life into his nostrils, and how woman was created by the rib, the bone of man.  God could have created us from dust, but instead used the bone of man who was already created in HIS image.  Cool, makes me feel special as a woman.  Anyway I am getting sidetracked.

God wants to help us make wise choices about the people we allow in our life.  Friendships, business partnerships, and yes even romance.  Finding the right people is an important part of determining God’s will for our life.

Character Discernment

This is a valuable tool for avoiding the wrong people.  As Pastor Franklin says, "toxic entanglements."  It is a skill many lack. Now are you ready for this?  This is defined so simple, yet it is so hard to apply.  Here goes, "It is simply the ability to find relationships that are good for you, and to avoid those that are not."

Galatians 5:7 "You ran well.  Who hindered you from obeying the truth?" Notice the word "who"?  We are to set our mind on things of the Spirit by living according to the Spirit, not flesh or feelings or the world’s lies.  Romans 8:5 says, "Those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit, the things of the Spirit." 

Pastor Franklin states that when people enter into our life they not only bring their bodies, but their spirits too.  He claims there are two types of people: Flesh People and Faith People.  He describes this as those who feed your fears are ‘flesh people’ and those who build you up and feed your faith are ‘faith people’.  He explains that Christians will find themselves in confusing relationships that drain them of their emotional energy and greatly reduces their effectiveness.  I must admit.  This is me.  I feel the reason I overlooked blogging this chapter is because in the last month I found myself struggling in the mist of confusion about a dear friend of mine.  One I feel could become more then a friend, but in the last few weeks he has withdrawn or appears to have withdrawn from me.  This of course saddens me, but I had not had the time to deal with my emotion and focus on the truth due to T-ball games and avoiding the issue.  Instead I reacted not in the Spirit but in the flesh.  I can only hope that it is not too late.  But I am not worried about it.  If it is God’s will then it will be.  If not then it should not.  🙂  This hurts to say because I like this guy a lot and can see so much good in our friendship.  I can even see great things in our future if we were to become more then friends.  I know the enemy does not want this for sure.  But if the feeling is not mutual then friendship is where this should end.  Anywaysssss!  As I stated this chapter hurt me to re-read.

If a friendship, business relationship, or romance pulls you away from other Christians or church, see it as a WARNING Sign to avoid them.  This is a warning sign of spiritual failure.  This does not mean that ‘flesh’ people are bad or that we can never associate with them.  It means they don’t belong in your inner circle, but rather your outer circle.  Witness to them when you can.  Bring the word of God into their life whenever possible.  Let HIS light shine.  Do not shun them.  Show God’s love.

Find those that will fill your life.  That will help bring you closer to being the person God created you to be.  Faith people will be honest with you in a lovingly manner.  They are strong when you are weak. If God wants to bless you, HE will send a person. That is why we need to stay in prayer. Also if Satan wants to curse you, he will send a person.  Do not be frightened.  If you remain in prayer daily, God is with you and will give you discernment if you ask. 

Pastor Franklin goes into sharing the story of how God sent Ananias to Paul when he needed to be saved.  The ‘Kingdom Connection"!!!  God will put people in your life who will act like a bridge to get you where you’re supposed to go.  Later he used Barnabas to help Paul get his foot in the door of the church.  When Paul was discouraged, God sent Titus.  We all have had a discouraging day until that one individual comes across our path and speaks the right words of encouragement which completely changed our mood.  2 Corinthians 7:6 "Nevertheless God, who comforts the downcast, comforted us by the coming of Titus."

Marriage is one of the MOST important decisions in ones life.  Make the wrong decision and many can pay the price.  I say many because in my life, many have been hurt via the divorce Satan sought to bring about and won.  I will not go into this, but this divorce I had no control over and my ex would not turn to the Lord, he simply took it upon himself to end a 15 year marriage.  This affected our children, friends, and family members causing pain changing the course of our lives.  Then to hear about the law now pasted allowing same sex marriage.  Making a mockery of what God intended marriage to be.  I would share a silly story sent via email yesterday, but won’t, I do not feel it is relevant here.   Anyway.  Same sex marriage is a sin and if you think otherwise, then you are not spending enough time in HIS word.

In this section Pastor Franklin speaks to the ladies of what to look for and how to not pursue a man.  I failed at this.  Remember, I have never dated and never knew the rules.  I didn’t realize there were rules.  I mean I watched the movie "How to lose a guy in 10 days", but still I managed to scare away a good man.  I think.  I am not going to worry about it.  God knew how I would react before I did.  He knew the pain and struggles I deal with and although there are many books available telling us how to behave, they are merely one’s own advice.  Some say go for it, be ambitious to get what you want go after it.  Some say sit back and let it come to you.  How do we really know how to behave?  I have come to realize for me after making the mistakes I have made in the last month.  I am just going to turn it over to the Lord.  I said this month ago, but failed.  I still tried to control the situation.  Yesterday, July 6th I once again turned it over to the Lord.  I am going to take my own Pastor’s advice and his wife’s advice which happens to be the same as Pastor Franklin’s.  To allow the man to do the pursuing.   This is going to be hard for me, but I must do this.  I must let go of this whole situation.

In this last section it speaks about how the man is to provide.  In today’s world, it is a ‘partnership’, but according to the bible, it is the man’s responsibility to take care of the things.  He uses the story of Ruth and Boaz to explain his reasoning.  Good read if you haven’t read Ruth.

He goes on to speak about Jonah.  About one person in rebellion can bring down a shipload of people.  Pastor Franklin states, "Sometimes, when your life is rocking and reeling in the storm, it’s because of people to whom you have attached yourself."  In the story of Jonah, Jonah knew he was the cause of the storm, but rather then jumping off the boat he tells them to throw him overboard.  Why?  Rebels are in rebellion, but are not dumb.  He knew the boat was a safe place and in the water would drown.  Normally one in rebellion will find it easier to bring guilt upon the innocent in hopes they do not have the courage to stand up for themselves and do what must be done.  In this story Jonah is cast overboard and the storm stops.  It takes courage to do what is right and take a stand.  Jonah 1:15 "So they picked up Jonah and threw him into the sea, and the sea ceased from its raging."

Even after Jonah was thrown overboard, God was still there for him. God had prepared a great fish to swallow him and spit him back onto the shore so he could travel on to Nineveh, his intended destination.  "When you allow the wrong people in your life, you’re keeping them from God’s best."  As well as causing pain in your own life, keeping peace at a distance.  Ask God to reveal the Jonahs in your life, those that are rocking the boat.  God will provide wisdom and courage, kneel and pray for it.

Find a mentor!!

Someone who will hold you accountable for things you do and say.  Someone who will help you understand HIS word, one to encourage, to help shine HIS light.  This could be a fellow Christian in the aspect of a friend, a spouse, a member in the church, and yes even your Pastor.

In this book there is a section that is overlooked by many.  "Jesus spent three and a half years of His life in ministry.  Most of His time was not with the crowds, or with rich and influential leaders, but with twelve men into whom He poured His life and wisdom.  He would speak in parables to the crowds of people, then He would explain and elaborate with the disciples."  These men became the building blocks of His church.  Mentors expose you to new orbits of ministry, new habits, and new levels of expectation.  A mentor will keep raising the bar, asking for a little more effort and for better results, mostly teaching you to expect more from yourself.  What is Orbits – a range of activity, experience, or knowledge.  A range of control or influence.  At times a mentor can seem cruel and inconsiderate, but if you want to be a winner, they can urge, push you to the top as a coach would for a player or team participant in whatever sport activity.  The activity does not matter, but a coach is similar to a mentor, if that will help you understand.

BEWARE of False Brethren

If you have found wrong people in your life, good news, God will bring the right people and remove the wrong ones.  When He does, do not return to the wrong people again. 

Sadly, false brethren, the wrong people can be found within your own family.  It is hard to prune them out of your life.  If they often bring condemnation, if they never celebrate your dream, if you receive a blessing and they seem that there is less for them or that it is due them. Then you will know who that family member is and must pray for the strength to prune them off your tree. 

Pastor Franklin states, "Some people will bless you when they come into your life; some people will bless you when they exit your life."

Pray for discernment and then use every bit of wisdom and discernment God provides to find the right people.  They will draw you closer to HIM and help you in being the person HE created you to be.

In my life in regards to this gentleman I feel God has brought into my life.  I will simple pray.  I watched the movie " The List" last night and again tonight.  I could see the battle this man had with the good and the bad.  I like how the retired missionary states, "One thing God’s children and His enemy forget is the power of prayer."  I will continue to pray for discernment and God’s will in my own life and in the life of all those I care about to include this friend. 🙂  Only God knows if this friendship will lead to more or not.  I am simply going to live daily for JESUS, my Lord and savior.

et cetera